Wednesday, March 30, 2011

What's Your Biggest Fear?

I think we all think about the future too much sometimes. So much sometimes that it hinders the present that we live in now. It takes away from the moments of the day we're supposed to be enjoying at this very point in time. I know I do this a lot. I worry about a year from now, two years, five years and I end up wasting today. In fact, I think I've been doing that all semester long. See, like every other person I have a picture for my life, I have a dream that I want my life to make come true. And I'm terrified that I'll never fulfill that dream. That it'll be a few years down the road and I will have missed my chance. But I think the thing is, that all our lives have more than one dream. We all think that we'll only ever going to be happy this one way, but in all honesty, I think there are many ways, many paths we can take that will still end up with us being happy. Maybe it wasn't the most ideal one, maybe it wasn't the perfect dream, but who ever has perfect in their lives anyway? So, I know for me, conquering my biggest fear in the whole world is to realize that my life has more than one possible happy ending, more than one possible dream. I can be fulfilled and not have the exact ending I've always hoped for. It's a scary thought to me and its darkened a lot of my days these past couple months. But I think I've finally found a way to start overcoming it. I know I don't fully believe in my new found theory yet, but I'm doing my best to hold onto it so that I can start enjoying today! And stop wasting away my precious moments worrying about a year from now, or two years from now. Today is what you make, be the decider of your life. If you want a good day... nothing and no one is in control of that but you... make it a good day.

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  1. Very, very true...I had to tell Jonathan about that a couple of times recently! When we found out I was pregnant, he was extremely nervious and worried all about how he would manage school and a baby and everything else in our life, but I told him: "Just enjoy being happy about the news and we will figure the rest out when it comes to it!"

    The same with his classes, he is trying to cram a ton of hard classes into one semester so he can graduate faster and I had to ask him, "Why are you in such a hurry?" Enjoy college! Enjoy being young and living a carefree life without the mundane work the rest of us are stuck in! Take your time and really enjoy being a full time student, there is no hurry!

    I love you, I hope you keep seeing things with sich a positive outlook!

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